I just want to scream
Posted by AK on January 2, 2009
You know I just want to scream, someone explain to me what is going on. This affair thing has me spinning. I think Trish has either set up a new email account or is using Poppy’s. There were several emails between Gary and Poppy on Christmas about going to Florida on the 20th for vacation. Now Trish just emailed me to tell me about the commercial Adam is going to be in and she tells me she is going to Florida on the 20th. So it wasn’t Poppy he was emailing it was her. And they set up to meet several times throughout Christmas Day. This is just wrong. Do they think I am stupid?
I want to email Gary myself, because we can’t talk, he is just mean, he yells, he says hurtfull things, I cry and nothing gets settled. I need him to decide what it is he wants. I can’t have him living here anymore. Not with the silent treatment. He goes to bed and totally ignores that I am in the room. Yet he still expects me to cook, clean, do the laundry, heck I even make his plate and carry it out to him to eat.
I need closure. I need to get out of this limbo. I can not live like this, I need to move on. This dissolving of our marriage is his idea not mine. I was willing to work things out, but I am not willing to live with a lying sneaking adulterer.
I don’t know what to say, I want to say it right. I will pray about it and believe God will give me direction. And soon.
